Losing my mind!!!!

Babba at Jungle Jacks

Monkey and Jungle Jacks

Monkey's Dino:)

   So it's been 15 days and counting since I've seen or heard from R:( It wouldn't be so bad except Monkey has been so disobedient. She is really pushing the limit and boundaries on everything. I have grounded her form going places, using her computer games, and watching TV or movies on Netflix. It just doesn't seem to be doing much. I really can't wait till dad comes home cause he is so much better with disciplining her than me. I am a person that believes that you should never discipline your child out of anger, so lately I'm not able to because I am beyond mad. What are some things that work for y'all? I know its a phase and once we figure out what to do and what works things might change. But for now I just feel like I'm losing my mind. Aside form that things have been going great. I've been keeping busy so time has been flying by a lot more that the last two weeks R was gone. We've hang with friends and enjoyed some fun time in the sun and indoors at Jungle Jacks.

Church, Cleaning, & Cute kids:)

      Don't judge my title it just states my day in 3 words:) So today was an amazing day, I actually can't believe I made it to church, I thought I wasn't going to wake up in time. But I did, and made it just in time for the 1st song. I almost didnt make it also, because I couldn't find my rings, so I had to go with out them. I felt totally naked. Church was good, but I'm really missing my man, so being there with out him was a bummer. We came home, and one kid napped while the other ate lunch. I took that opportunity to clean a bit and get things organize. I'm am so excited and thankful to God, that He's given me the motivation that I've needed to keep going. Lately I had been getting really depressed. Mostly because I've had no motivation to clean, cook, even spend time in the Word. But I made a decision that with R going to the field, I was going to get this house in order. I started with the binder, and that really got the ball rolling. I also made a duties chart for monkey, and its also motivated her to get things done. So I'm thankful to report that the house is clean, laundry is done, Praise the Lord!!! We had enough time, that we went on a picnic

I'm Shrek

Me too!!

The kids had a blast! They are making this time away from R so much better. They are so goofy and silly, that I just feel so blessed to be their mama. Monkey is such a good sis. She helps out in many ways when it comes to her baby brother.

Monkey trying to get the ball, and Lil Man wanted to help too.

     So tomorrow I start with my new routine, I hope I can keep up with the many goals I have set for myself. I've always liked Philippians 4;13. And that is exactly how I feel right now, to Him be the glory in all that I do, for He is my strength when I am weak.

     Be angry and do not sin; do not let the sun go down on your anger, and give no opportunity to the devil. (Ephesians 4:26-27 ESV)

What's in your eye?

The other day I posted this scripture at the end of one of my posts,"Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" Matthew 7:3(NIV) It made me think, how often do I judge people on there actions, words, attitude, lives...ect? But do I ever truly look at my actions, words, attitude, life...ect? How are the things I do and say glorify God? Are they glorifying Him?  I know I'm not perfect, I know we live in a fallen world, and because of that, sin will always be there to tempt me. But what am I doing to guard my heart from it? It's always so easy to point out my hubby's flaws, especially when we're arguing. But how does that help the situation? Even if 95% of the fault lands on him, what about that 5% that lands on me. And trust me on most occasions the fault is mostly on my side, but I don't always want to admit it, LOL. Anyways, I'm still responsible only for my actions. For me this is a hard concept because I hate admitting when I'm wrong. I mean come on, who really ever likes to admit there flaws or admit when they are wrong? I know I don't. But this verse is telling me, that instead of worrying about someone elses faults, I need to look inward at myself. I guess what I'm trying to share is let's look at how we can work on our selves, and not on how we can change others. I can only change one person in this world, ME. And even then, I can't do it on my own, I need the Holy Spirit in me to help me change. This is something that won't come naturally to me, it's something that I will have to work on, on a daily basis. But I know it is something that will Glorify my Lord. And that there is something worth working on:) I challenge you that next time you see that speck of dust in someones eye, you first look at yourself before pointing it out to them.

7“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:7-8(NIV)